The Thwarted

I hate the fact that I totally suck in what I do. It's like every little thing that I work hard for to make my mom and dad proud, isn't enough. They don't really get mad or what, which makes me feel more of the guilt of letting them down. 

I don't know of anyone who have felt as I do.You know, like you've been working hard for things and you succeed, yet when you fail at something BIG, those stuffs that made you feel good about yourself fades into thin air.

It's a horrifying reality to face the feeling of being a loser. Several times it crosses my thoughts if I'm really meant to take the path I'm walking on. What if I'm not? The years I've wasted seems too precious to trash, yet it always lets me down as well. 

Recollecting the past just lets frustration flood me, and seeing what's ahead of me, intimidates and terrifies me. I don't know if I can make it. 

Yeah i know there are people who constantly say they'll always have my back and all. But hey! Seriously, even yourself knows that in times of disheartening moments, there's only one person on earth you have: YOURSELF.