Sunday, February 1, 2009

The Thwarted

I hate the fact that I totally suck in what I do. It's like every little thing that I work hard for to make my mom and dad proud, isn't enough. They don't really get mad or what, which makes me feel more of the guilt of letting them down. 

I don't know of anyone who have felt as I do.You know, like you've been working hard for things and you succeed, yet when you fail at something BIG, those stuffs that made you feel good about yourself fades into thin air.

It's a horrifying reality to face the feeling of being a loser. Several times it crosses my thoughts if I'm really meant to take the path I'm walking on. What if I'm not? The years I've wasted seems too precious to trash, yet it always lets me down as well. 

Recollecting the past just lets frustration flood me, and seeing what's ahead of me, intimidates and terrifies me. I don't know if I can make it. 

Yeah i know there are people who constantly say they'll always have my back and all. But hey! Seriously, even yourself knows that in times of disheartening moments, there's only one person on earth you have: YOURSELF.


3 comments:

Unknown said...

I've also felt that way in the past, but now I know that if I spend my time on being sorry for myself I'll just waste precious time. a good friend of mine told me that, and that my friend is you >;3 so....if you can't believe in yourself, then believe in me who believes in you. I know it's corny but hey I may not always have your back, but I'll always be here and I'll never get tired of cheering you up.... >;3

so cheer up....or else ahahahahaha

~*Akisha*~ said...

i know how you feel. oftentimes i feel the same way, especially when i think of my "glorious days" and now, bakit sa college naiba lahat...but because of what happened i learned how to *relax*, how to accept things, and how sweet a victory is after a great fall.

sometimes failures and losing keep us grounded, molds our characters, and after a long period of time maappreciate mo rin ang mga failures mo.

sabi ko nga dati sa isa kong classmate, "failures and frustrations make us more human."

SexY LovE_09 said...

Hey friends... Thanks for the inputs.